Since last updating, I went to New York and saw my favorite musical, Cabaret, before it closes on Broadway. I saw Alan Cumming play the role he was probably born to play, and was lucky enough to get his autograph and say a quick hello to him after the show.
Also while in New York, I had a revelation. Moving to New York City is probably going to be one of the hardest things I ever do. It’ll be a huge adjustment for me- I’ve lived in the suburbs my entire life. It’s a little scary. A lot scary. Very daunting. Overwhelming to think about. But I know if I don’t do it, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. I’ve never felt as fully alive and as fully present as a human in the world as I do when I’m in the city. And I owe it to myself to give life there a chance.
Today I got a giant pineapple tattooed on my right thigh. Because I love Cabaret so goddamn much. And because it was high time I got my first tattoo- I could never decide on exactly what I wanted for the first one, so I put it off for years. I’m very happy with my decision.
Why a pineapple? Why Cabaret? A lot of reasons.
1. The pineapple is a reminder to me that love is hard. Choosing to love can often be a radical and courageous act. Sometimes you can’t settle for the lowest hanging fruit – you have to climb up a little higher to find the sweetest piece.
2. The pineapple is a reminder to me that I need to do more than just love – I need to show the people I love how much I love them.
3. The most important message of Cabaret for me is that people cannot and do not exist in isolation from what is going on in the world around them. This tattoo reminds me that the personal is the political, and that I cannot ignore the bad things in the world forever. I have to take a stand. I have to work towards positive change, in any way I possibly can, no matter how small.
4. On the contrary, Cabaret is also a reminder that sometimes you do need to escape (leave your troubles outside) for a little while. And that’s okay- even necessary. You just can’t exist indefinitely like that.
5. Above all, when I listen to Cabaret, I feel unbridled happiness. I love singing those songs and listening to them, and seeing a giant pineapple on my leg makes me smile in the same giddy, carefree way.
TLDR; life is good.