Life lately

It seems like when life is going well/things are going smoothly, I post on here a lot less. I feel like I don’t have much to write about at the moment — in reality, nothing could be further from the truth…but I’m just struggling to find the time to sit down and write quality posts on some fairly in-depth and detailed topics.

So what’s been keeping me so busy?
-Finishing my last semester with a full course load. I’ll begin student teaching in the fall (for an entire year!) and only have one course left to take during that time.
-Exercising. A lot more. I’m finally starting to run again, and making slow but steady progress in that area. I’ve also begun regular strength training – as with most things I get excited about, I’ve been overdoing it a bit and had to take today off to give my body a break. But that’s okay.
-Trying to be more mindful about what I’m eating. While I want to make ED recovery my top priority, I do want/need(?) to lose some weight for health reasons. I feel much more at peace with my body now than I have at any point in the past four years or so. But my doctor would like me to lose a little weight. I’m not so focused on what the scale says…but I want to feel fit/strong/healthy/badass again. I don’t care if I never get down to my lowest weight. I just want to be physically active consistently, because almost nothing makes me feel as good as regular exercise does. I could definitely make a very long post (or series of post) on the challenges of losing weight with a history of disordered eating. So to be continued for this one, I guess.
-Summer job search. While I won’t be broken-hearted if I stay in my current job for the summer, if possible, I would like to make more money and do something different the summer before my internship. I’m currently looking for a full-time nannying position and have a few leads so far. I feel kind of guilty about the possibility of leaving my current program…but ultimately I need to do what’s best for me, my finances, and my future.
-Taking┬ácare of myself. Getting enough sleep, taking time to relax, taking time to appreciate the small stuff. Not putting as much pressure on myself to achieve some ridiculous idea of perfection (which doesn’t even exist). My sinus infection seems like it may have returned, so making my own health & stress management a priority is all the more important.

Expect more regular posting sometime in mid-May, but for now I’m guessing my posts will continue to be few and far between! ­čśŤ


Life update

It kind of sucks when you post so infrequently that every post turns into a life update of sorts. Anyway, I am attempting to create some kind of regular posting schedule for myself that will fit into my school/work schedule. Right now I think I will be posting on Fridays and Sundays, starting next week. Obviously, I’d like to post more frequently if possible, but I don’t want to overcommit. Those are the days I anticipate having the most free time.

I start my last semester of my undergraduate career next Tuesday! I don’t think I’ve fully wrapped my head around that yet. I’m excited, but it would be a bit more exciting/scary if I was going right into the “real world” after graduating. I’m headed straight into grad school, though- which will likely be different in some ways, I imagine- and so I’ll still be in the cocoon of academia! For another 1.5 years.

School has already started in the city I work in, and the first day of our after-school program was yesterday. It honestly couldn’t have gone better! We have a few new kids- they’re all great, and fit right into our existing group. The afternoons feel so short compared to the long, hot days of working in the summer program. All in all, despite how much I complained about my job this summer, I definitely got a lot out of it. Mostly, I feel a lot more competent in dealing with challenging behaviors and defiance.

Not too much else is new since the last time I updated. Doug and I have been running a lot together, which is so much fun. We really push each other and challenge each other. He’s the only person I’ve ever enjoyed running with! We’re planning on running a 5K with some family & friends in November. I think it will be a lot easier for me to fall into a regular exercise routine once school starts. My earliest class this semester is at 9:10am!┬á

Life feels really balanced and healthy lately. Time with friends, time with family, time with Doug, time alone. I think the work/school balance will be perfect this semester, too, and I should have a bit more free time since I completed my internship last semester. I know two of my classes will be quite demanding, but I’m confident I can handle it!┬á

Well that’s about it for now, but you should be seeing more of me on this blog in the coming weeks! I hope you’re all having a great week so far, and happy Wednesday!